As I navigated my teenage years, I began to realize that my feelings for others didn't quite fit the traditional mold. I had always identified as gay, but the more I interacted with people of all genders and orientations, the more I realized that my attraction wasn't limited to just one gender. It was a confusing and overwhelming feeling, like trying to grasp a handful of sand - the harder I tried to hold onto it, the more it slipped through my fingers.
I was terrified of being rejected or judged by my friends, family, and community. The thought of not fitting into the neatly labeled boxes of 'gay' or 'straight' was daunting. I felt like I was living a lie, pretending to be something I wasn't just to avoid the discomfort and uncertainty that came with being different.
But as I continued to explore my feelings and desires, I realized that I didn't have to conform to societal norms. I was tired of living in the shadows, pretending to be someone I'm not. It took a lot of courage, but I finally decided to embrace my bisexuality and all its complexities. It's not always easy, but it's liberating to be myself, without apology or expectation.